Realizing now how painful divorce is, do you have regrets? Would you do it again?

“I think you’re a beautiful person on the outside, but inside you’re hideous.” 

“Likewise.” I replied instantly.  

I hadn’t ever really looked at it like that though. He put it so succinctly.  

Maybe I thought I was a bit less harsh because I used so many words to communicate the same idea. My mom loves to extol his conventional beauty. A lot of good that does me I’d remind her. It didn’t make him tender, it never coaxed him towards softness in his handling of me.