A non exhaustive list of places I've cried during my divorce
In grocery stores, many
When my oldest picked out a #1 Dad tie at Goodwill, because he is
While reading bedtime stories
In window seat 27A on Spirit Airlines, uncomfortably close to two twenty something men who couldn’t conceive of the horrors that awaited them in love and life
Over the kitchen sink, classic
On the most beautiful fall day, crunching leaves beneath my feet
On the most beautiful summer day, with what I was sure was the presence of God and my father in the clouds- divorce will make you spiritual, or desperate
On any given day with even three minutes of clouds or rain
The moment my best friend picks up the phone
In Terminal A at Harry Reid International Airport, Las Vegas, Nevada
Writing my children’s names on a court document
In the parking lot of a Sushi restaurant after a $15 lunch special, clinging to my husband’s best friend’s wife, “I thought I was gonna lose you,” I sobbed- the division of people is as real as assets
At my husband’s birthday dinner, but discreetly as not to kill the vibe
Driving to Christmas, covertly, to avoid setting off alarm bells in my children - restrained suffering really is the name of the game here
Would love to hear about your most poignant or public emotional unravelling. New paid article coming Sunday.
Xo
i still cry, scarlett.
i cry each christmas eve as the kids go to their mom’s for christmas.
i cry on birthday mornings when i’m not there to wake them up with some silliness.
i cry when my youngest (11), and by far the most attune to emotions, texts me to say, “dude, i love you. you are very important in my life!”
but in crying i find relief and in that relief i find courage.
so, cry. cry wherever you want, as much as you want. courage, my friend!
Oh Scarlett, I see you, I feel you. I relate to your good - mid - abandoned. I'm feeling sad just typing this. Much respect and love through this difficult time.